Chasing an End with a Beginning

Deep breath.
I never thought I’d make it this far.  My prayer mirrors Thomas’…Lord I believe.  Help my unbelief.  2014 has been transformational in so many ways.  My heart is so full of gratitude to the Lord, it could literally burst.  I’ve blown it many times this year, but God is so faithful.  He is SO faithful.  In August I was doing my devotional in “One Thousand Gifts” by Anne Voskamp and p.74 said “Transfiguration can be the long miracle.”  I underlined it and then went to another blog I follow called Thrive Moms where I read their devotional listing 1 Corinthians 3:18 as the main scripture.

“Nothing between us and God, our faces shining with the brightness of His face.  
And so we are transfigured much like the Messiah, our lives gradually
becoming brighter and more beautiful as God enters our lives and we become like Him.”

So what next?

This year has been a process.  Accepting the Lord as my Healer is not something that came overnight…or easily.  The Lord never expected me to carry this struggle with food and my body at all.  Much less alone.

Matthew 11:28-30 (NIV) says :
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Being yoked to something or someone is very intimate.  If I’m yoked to someone then I’m side by side, on the same level as them, sharing the load. If I’m yoked to Christ, which is what He wants for us, then He’s telling us that He wants that intimate relationship with us.

He wants to be the load bearer.
He wants to trade our heavy burdens
and all of our weariness
for something easier,

handing that “thing” over to the Lord…
well, it’s not always easy.

Laying stuff down at the foot of the cross to only pick it back up again has been my cycle for years.  During this year of transformation I felt the Lord asking me, “Jill, do you trust me?”  I knew that every time I was picking up my hurts and burdens and struggles that I was flashing a thumbs up to the Lord and with a wink saying, “It’s all good God…I got this.”

Clearly I didn’t.
Accepting God as our Healer is an act of trust.  An act of obedience and faith where we finally take God at His word.  That He is who He says He is and He’ll do what He says He’ll do.  In our life.  Because 1 Corinthians  says,
“For no matter how many promises God has made, they are “Yes” in Christ. And so through him the “Amen” is spoken by us to the glory of God.”
He has a full life waiting for us.
Will we take it?
Will we trust Him to do what He promises He’ll do?
He’s our burden lifter…
…if we’ll allow Him to be.

I’m a book-shelving, former tap dancer, wanna be writer, singer,
and banjo player, mother of 4, wife of 1, follower of Christ,
walking in the shadow of the Proverbs 31 woman
and redeemed by the grace and love of an Almighty God…
just living the dream.

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