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Hi, yes, can you tell me where the contentment is? In an XL?

So I’ve been listening to a lot of podcasts lately, especially through Elevation Church and Pastor Steven Furtick.  I found out that he’s a Baptist, but you could have fooled me!  He’s definitely NOT my grandmother’s Baptist!  And I’ll have to admit, he’s more charismatic than a lot of Charismatic preachers out there!  So, I’ll listen and enjoy and be blessed and sift what he says along with the Word.  Considering I’m a Spirit Filled reformed Episcopalian…I’ve got some room built in for open mindedness.  I think Christ does too.  🙂  Anyhoo, I was listening to Lysa Terkheurst’s Mother’s Day message and it was really good.  She has such a gift for ministering to women in a mighty and real way.  It was called “Cut the But” and in essence, she was saying, instead of saying, “I’m a child of God, but __________________ (fill in your blank)… We should say, “I’m a child of God, therefore I’m clothed in righteousness, therefore I’m redeemed by His sacrifice, etc.  Our words are so powerful and I’m so guilty of doing “but” instead of “therefore.”  I listened to her podcast and later that day came across the picture above on Facebook.  I loved it immediately.  I’ll admit, I put my value, my worth, everything in what I look like, how much I weigh, what size pants I have on.  I’ve done it all my life.  Sometimes, okay a lot of times, I put value on other people on what they look like and how much they weigh.  I know it’s so ridiculous and absurd.  But I do it anyway.  I can’t understand why my husband would love me unconditionally with me looking the way that I do.  I can’t possibly understand why God would love me unconditionally with me looking the way that I do AND knowing the inner most thoughts of my mind.  Lord have mercy!  What in the world do you do with THAT kind of crazy!?  I’m hoping to one day get to the place of contentment NOT being tied to my outward appearance, because in my mind I know that “God looks at the heart…” blah blah blah.  It’s hard to know AND do God’s word.  Sheesh.  Just add that to my “to do” list….
But I’m hoping that it comes sooner rather than later so I don’t look back on this life with a boatload of regret on all the “living” I missed out on.Image
Why is this so hard?

I’m a book-shelving, former tap dancer, wanna be writer, singer,
and banjo player, mother of 4, wife of 1, follower of Christ,
walking in the shadow of the Proverbs 31 woman
and redeemed by the grace and love of an Almighty God…
just living the dream.