Tuesday: Jump In
I think we can all agree that social media is a blessing and a curse.
In 2007 I was on the front end of getting an understanding of this while on maternity leave with my second son who was born in May of that year.
I had a cranky (we later realized gassy) newborn with an incessant appetite to nurse and a 4 year old son to entertain all while nursing a c-section incision.
Not that big of a deal, really.
Until you log on to the internet and discover something called MySpace.
All of a sudden I am bombarded with how fabulous people I graduated from high school were.
How exotic their vacations were, how beautiful they still were, how perfect their children were, and how successful their careers were.
Uh, don’t mind me…I’ll just be over here smelling like sweat and spoiled milk while watching The Incredibles for the 47th time in a row because I’m too terrified to take these little humans out in public by myself.
Not at that point. No.
I felt trapped. I felt hopeless. I felt so, so alone.
I was two weeks in to my maternity leave and my teaching partner came over to bring me something.
She asked me how I was and I told her, “I’m ready to come back to work. I miss adults.”
I knew that millions of women all over the world had multiple children and lived to tell about it.
But at that point I was in the middle of an island.
“Have you talked to Jill lately?”
“Um, Jill who?”
“Oh you know, she just had a baby…I think she took an all expense paid trip to Misery Island brought to you by MySpace and the Comparison Airlines.”
You can be surrounded by people, have thousands of friends online and still be struck with feeling alone and that no one cares.
What I didn’t realize at the time, because I was feeling so sorry for myself, was that I was letting my “feelings” dictate what I knew to be true.
Let me encourage you: Feelings are not the boss of you.
Feelings will lie to you every time. And any thing that is contrary to the Word of God is not from Him.
Are you in a season of loneliness?
Retrace your steps and get to the root of your loneliness.
Could it be you are letting your feelings boss you around?
Or could you be feeling isolated because God is trying to draw you closer to Him?
I definitely think mine was both. I was SO absorbed with the world and feeling sorry for myself that God allowed it so I would call out to Him and rely on Him.
Not the postings of my fellow classmates.
Genesis 2:18, Deuteronomy 31:6, Philippians 4:8 and John 14:16 to understand God’s promises and will for your life.
Stop allowing the enemy to distort your reality and stop letting your feelings boss you around.
Stand on God’s word and God’s word alone.
If it doesn’t line up, reject it.
Jesus certainly understands being lonely.
His last words while dying on the cross were asking God why He had forsaken Him.
God had absolutely not forsaken Jesus.
He had a bigger plan in mind.
You and me.
I’m a book-shelving, former tap dancer, wanna be writer, singer,
and banjo player, mother of 4, wife of 1, follower of Christ,
walking in the shadow of the Proverbs 31 woman
and redeemed by the grace and love of an Almighty God…
just living the dream.