Calloused Knees & Heart: SJG 2018 Summer Bible Study
There’s a difference between conviction and condemnation.
Holy Spirit convicts.
The enemy condemns.
God corrects with a loving heart, chastens His children.
The enemy is an accuser of the brethren.
I have realized the difference lately while scrolling through Facebook.
A friend of mine whom I met at a writing conference posted this picture on her ministry page, Lineage of Love.
It’s just a simple picture of her teenage son, in bed, reading his Bible.
Her caption on the picture explained how God’s word is the light we need for all the paths we walk down; financial, relationships, fear, sickness, stress. God’s word lights all of them up.
I saw the picture though and was punched in gut, “Her son, her teenaged son, is reading the Bible. Like, voluntarily.” *sigh*
Then, quiet a bit later, a friend of mine from high school posted this about her teenage son:
I LOVE seeing how God is transforming the lives of people I grew up with in school.
And to know that God is transforming their children’s lives?
Ugh. SO so so amazing.
It was her first line that took my breath away.
“This (her son giving his testimony) is the result of many people’s scarred knees from praying.”
I immediately felt convicted.
What do my knees look like??
Now, old Jill would have allowed the enemy to take this to the guilt bank lickety split.
You’re a terrible mother.
Your kids aren’t going to grow up to do anything.
You can’t even pray for your own kids faithfully!
That my friends is condemnation and lies from the enemy.
Instead, new Jill, has turned these truths and received them from the Holy Spirit as correction and ways I need to sincerely pray about the habits of my children.
Yes, my teen would rather play 14 hours of Fortnite.
Yes, my 11 year old would rather watch YouTube videos of people falling off of treadmills.
Yes, my 7 year old would rather make slime and play on her iPad.
And yes, my 5 year old would rather snuggle with her cat.
Not to say they are always head down in technology or busy with some other interest of their choice.
I can’t say that I see any of them settling down with the Bible or in prayer.
Am I setting that example?
Yes, they see me doing my Bible study, usually me telling them to leave me alone for 10 minutes so I can do it…
They see their dad and I living out our relationship with God in praise and worship, prayer for protection, and faith in God’s plan for our lives.
But is that enough?
While at church camp a precious friend of mine was preaching and told a story of how her 5 year old proclaimed to her husband, “I love God more than mommy does!”
On our way to that very service you know what my 5 year old said? “OHMYGOSH! We have to go to church AGAIN?! I learned about God like a hundred times already!”
This mom right here? #winning
So my goal this week?
To physically get on my knees.
It’s not going to be a quick “help my kid not be such a jerk” or a “I am so frustrated, I can’t handle much more of this attitude”
It’ll be me climbing in my prayer closet, a war room, whatever you want to call it.
I may have to hide in my car in an undisclosed location…whatever works.
I’m going to seek God with all of my heart ways that I can plant a deep seed in my children’s hearts while I still have them in my home.
That time is fleeting so quickly.
I’m going to seek God about habits I need to change, habits that rob me and my family of precious time from the Father.
Yes, they know their mom and dad love God.
Mom works with the youth.
Dad leads praise and worship.
Church life is literally all they know.
But, do they know Jesus?
Do they want to spend time with Him?
Do they choose Him or Roblox?
Do they choose Him or Snapchat?
He loves them enough to give them the choice.
He loves me enough to give me the choice too.
So this week?
I’m choosing Him on behalf of my kids.
Get Moving Monday:
In order to get the full meaning of these scriptures, back up and read the whole chapter. Read the verse in context.
Ask yourself these questions:
Who is the writer talking to?
What was the culture like when this was written?
Why is it important that this scripture is here at this particular point?
How can I apply this scripture to my life today?
Do my habits, thoughts, actions, mirror the people this scripture is intended for?
I’m a book-shelving, former tap dancer, wanna be writer, singer,
and banjo player, mother of 4, wife of 1, follower of Christ,
walking in the shadow of the Proverbs 31 woman
and redeemed by the grace and love of an Almighty God…
just living the dream.