It was about 11:00 last night and I was rocking/feeding my youngest. My mind had literally been racing all evening about things that seem to be spinning out of my control. A little backstory: my parents watch my daughters while I’m at work. About 3 weeks ago my dad was involved in an ATV accident and has been out of commission ever since. He does most of the lifting on my girls and with him being down, they both are. I have arranged for different people to watch the girls each day because it would be harder for people to commit to more than one day. People have lives. Thursdays were covered but the lady got a job and is now unavailable. My sister in law, watches the girls on Tuesdays. Now we have to rely on her for Thursday too. Other things that were completely out of my control were so heavy on my heart.
A heart that was full of fear and anxiety.
So, I’ve come to a crossroads of circumstances that I could do nothing about. I’ve tried my hardest to have what I WANT to happen be, but every door keeps getting slammed in my face. Anyway…I was on Facebook as I rocked my baby, because, yeah, I’m the mom who can’t just BE. I have to be doing two things at once and God forbid I just sit and soak up my daughter. Ugh. I came across a very good friend of my mom’s who has become a good friend of mine. She posted a picture of Phillippians 4:6-7 which says,
I literally started crying and thanking the Lord for caring about me and my tiny circumstance. No things won’t go my way, but He’s still on the throne and is in control. I private messaged my friend and thanked her. She told me that she wasn’t going to share that picture, but that God told her to anyway.
Oh how I love Him…
Oh how He cares so much for us.
I’m a book-shelving, former tap dancer, wanna be writer, singer,
and banjo player, mother of 4, wife of 1, follower of Christ,
walking in the shadow of the Proverbs 31 woman
and redeemed by the grace and love of an Almighty God…
just living the dream.