Simple Surrender

I survived April…barely.
With a deep sigh of relief here we are almost to the middle of May.
Each morning we keep waking up later and later and later and I AM SO READY FOR SUMMER.
I personally feel Jason and I are understaffed.
I told a friend last week at the ball field that I just “need ONE day to get my life together”…that hasn’t happened yet.
And if you hear someone shouting “glory Hallelujah” over Russell/Flatwoods area, it’s me and it’s because “baseball has been cancelled due to inclement weather.”
This week I have found myself rolling from one ditch to another.
Now typically I’m a “pull yourself up by the boot straps and put your big girl panties on kinda gal.”
But sometimes I am the carp at Kings Island.
You know, the kind when you toss the handful of fish food for 25 cents all you see is a mouth?

Except that’s me…and all I am is a mouth gasping for air.
Bad moods, down in the dumps, whatever you want to call it, I find that when I focus on all the stuff around me, I can get down pretty quickly.
When I spend too much time focusing on problems, to-do lists, schedules, parties, end of the year testing, jobs coming up, unfinished projects around our house, decisions that need to be made, negativity on the Facebooks…I am doing the OPPOSITE of what God has asked me to do.
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So it shouldn’t surprise me that instead of joy, peace, patience, kindness and self control; I have impatience, strife, bitterness, sadness.

Okay Lord.
I give.
I’m pulling myself up by the bootstraps, putting my big girl panties on.
I surrender.
I surrender my bad mood, my down in the dumps, my to-do list, my anxieties, my decisions…
I’m casting them on you.

This video and song ministers to me so much because I want to be that little girl; without a care in the world.

I think we all want to be her.

The girl with NOTHING on her mind, but holy surrender.


I’m a book-shelving, former tap dancer, wanna be writer, singer,
and banjo player, mother of 4, wife of 1, follower of Christ,
walking in the shadow of the Proverbs 31 woman
and redeemed by the grace and love of an Almighty God…
just living the dream.

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