Sometimes Seasons Suck
Seems simple enough.
It certainly falls under the category of “crap I’m super glad I don’t have to think about.”
Until I do…
In an effort to quiet my mind, I’ve picked my yoga mat up again.
And let me tell you, regardless of how you feel about yoga, the type I take part in, Holy Yoga, sits me quietly at the feet of Jesus.
And it does wonders for my body and my spirit.
While I’m in the middle of these impossible contortions, right in the middle of me telling myself,
“There’s. No. Way.”
I find that I’m holding my breath.
Now, breathing is something that is suuuper necessary. You know, to live and all.
So when I realize that I’m holding it all in trying to control my body, that’s it’s not until I let that breath out, that I’m able to finally “go deep” into what it is I’m trying to do in the first place.
Let me give you another example.
God spoke this to me so clearly while in the middle of one of these “episodes” where I realized I was holding my breath. Apparently, I’m awesome at this…
For the past several years there has been something very specific that Jason and I have felt God has called us to do in the ministry.
We’ve tried to talk God out of it.
We’ve weighed pro and con lists.
We’ve tried to figure out a way to manufacture “it” to take place.
We got nothin’.
To us, there seems to be seriously no possible way that “this” will ever happen.
Enter stage left: frustration, aggravation, impatience, bitterness, discontent, the list goes on and on and on.
Why would God give us the deep heartfelt desire to do something, and then not make a way?
So here we are, right smack dab in a several year-long season that we didn’t necessarily ask for.
We are waist deep in a desire to do something that looks like with our limited perception to have NO possible windows, open doors, or even crawl spaces into.
In Genesis Chapter 22, when God asked Abraham the impossible of offering his son as a sacrifice, Abraham was obedient.
He didn’t see the beginning, middle or the end of this heart-wrenching journey.
All he saw was a steadfast faith and trust in his God.
Meanwhile, God DID see the end of the story.
He was working behind the scenes to prepare a way, to supply a sacrifice.
God set that exact ram loose days, maybe weeks earlier in order for it to be caught in the right thicket, on the right mountain, at the perfectly right time to be provision for Abraham.
It was this obedience that was the springboard for GENERATIONS of blessing, starting with Abraham.
All God wanted was Abraham’s obedience.
All God wants is ours.
Can I encourage you a bit? Mainly because I need to encourage myself…
God is working on our “behind the scenes.”
You may be in the middle of a really sucky season right now.
One that you certainly didn’t ask for.
One that you can’t see ANY possible way out of.
One that is frustrating, and aggravating, and painful.
During the time when I’m holding my breath, or trying to control situations or people or outcomes, it’s then that I need to exhale His grace and mercy.
This season could be the springboard for great and amazing things.
I’m trusting that this season will be the fertile ground for which God is planting things deep in our hearts.
Things He knows we will need down the road.
So today, won’t you join me?
Allow Him the control by giving Him our obedience and trust that not only does He know the end, but He’s providing the means to the end.
One obedient breath at a time.
I’m a book-shelving, former tap dancer, wanna be writer, singer,
and banjo player, mother of 4, wife of 1, follower of Christ,
walking in the shadow of the Proverbs 31 woman
and redeemed by the grace and love of an Almighty God…
just living the dream.