Reflection Friday: Contentment

As I reflect on this past week I’m struck by several things. Mainly I’m so thankful for the diversity of our group. We have so many denominations and ages, and life experiences. Young teens, grandmas, empty nesters, stay at home moms, working moms, singles, divorcees…in our differences, we all have something to give. But I’m…
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Monday’s Message: Wishin’ and Hopin’

Our family is fresh off of a vacation. And let me tell you NOTHING makes you google boarding schools appreciate your family’s differences like a good old fashioned family vacation. All of our kids are so so different. Differences that I appreciate and love for different reasons. Differences that are God ordained and make our…
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Just the facts, Ma’am

“God, you did everything you promised,
and I’m thanking you with all my heart.
You pulled me from the brink of death,
my feet from the cliff-edge of doom.
Now I stroll at leisure with God 
in the sunlit fields of life.”
Psalm 56:12-13

This scripture was one I adopted this time last year when embarking on my healing journey.  It went straight to the heart of how I physically felt…on the brink of death, the cliff edge of doom.  Sounds dramatic…but it’s true.  There were literally nights that I prayed that God would let me fall asleep and wake up in His arms.  BUT, praise God, He gave me hope!  And this scripture opens up with hope!  God is true to His promises and I was thanking Him in advance for the work He, and only He, could do in my heart!

So, here’s the facts.
In one year I lost:
81 pounds (no, I didn’t have surgery…I get asked that a lot.)
4 inches off each arm
8 off each leg
11.5 off my waist
14 off my hips
With a total of 37.5 inches.  Yes, that’s almost how tall my 3.5 year old daughter is.  Sheesh.

I dropped 4 pant sizes.

According to my Fitbit, I blew my goal of 3 million steps out of the water with 4.2 million steps.  That translates into almost 1800 miles and over 1 million calories.  I set this years step goal at 5 million steps!

Above all these statistics, more importantly than what reads on a scale…I have a new heart.  A healed, whole heart that is SO full of gratitude and love for a Father who is so much more than God.  He is everything He says He is; Healer, Comforter, Provider, Victorious, Prince of Peace.
I could have done none of this without Him.
NONE.  I can do anything for a little bit.  Log food, count calories, exercise.  But, when I came to the realization that I was being a pawn for the enemy who wants to destroy me.  I was making his job easy.  I was believing his lies.  THAT realization is a good motivator for a heart change.

We are so much more than people wandering on hard ground.
God has SO much more for us.
If we would only take Him at His Word.
I know I can’t imagine if most of the people I talked to didn’t believe a word I said.  It’d be heartbreaking.

Am I finished?  Perfect?
God’s not finished with me yet!  But I’m off to a good start.  This is my new battle cry…

“Goodbye to shallow love, sharp words, self pity and suspicious fears.
I am an unsettled woman who no longer wishes to take
part in the enemy’s distractions or destructions.”
–Lysa Terkeurst

Here’s to 2015 and continued freedom!


Hi, yes, can you tell me where the contentment is? In an XL?

So I’ve been listening to a lot of podcasts lately, especially through Elevation Church and Pastor Steven Furtick.  I found out that he’s a Baptist, but you could have fooled me!  He’s definitely NOT my grandmother’s Baptist!  And I’ll have to admit, he’s more charismatic than a lot of Charismatic preachers out there!  So, I’ll listen and enjoy and be blessed and sift what he says along with the Word.  Considering I’m a Spirit Filled reformed Episcopalian…I’ve got some room built in for open mindedness.  I think Christ does too.  🙂  Anyhoo, I was listening to Lysa Terkheurst’s Mother’s Day message and it was really good.  She has such a gift for ministering to women in a mighty and real way.  It was called “Cut the But” and in essence, she was saying, instead of saying, “I’m a child of God, but __________________ (fill in your blank)… We should say, “I’m a child of God, therefore I’m clothed in righteousness, therefore I’m redeemed by His sacrifice, etc.  Our words are so powerful and I’m so guilty of doing “but” instead of “therefore.”  I listened to her podcast and later that day came across the picture above on Facebook.  I loved it immediately.  I’ll admit, I put my value, my worth, everything in what I look like, how much I weigh, what size pants I have on.  I’ve done it all my life.  Sometimes, okay a lot of times, I put value on other people on what they look like and how much they weigh.  I know it’s so ridiculous and absurd.  But I do it anyway.  I can’t understand why my husband would love me unconditionally with me looking the way that I do.  I can’t possibly understand why God would love me unconditionally with me looking the way that I do AND knowing the inner most thoughts of my mind.  Lord have mercy!  What in the world do you do with THAT kind of crazy!?  I’m hoping to one day get to the place of contentment NOT being tied to my outward appearance, because in my mind I know that “God looks at the heart…” blah blah blah.  It’s hard to know AND do God’s word.  Sheesh.  Just add that to my “to do” list….
But I’m hoping that it comes sooner rather than later so I don’t look back on this life with a boatload of regret on all the “living” I missed out on.Image
Why is this so hard?