It’s early and I’m working on my cup of apple cider, I’ve read through my Bible Study post for the day, written a long list of “thankfuls” and listening to the boys talk to each other…almost holding my breath for one of them to say something ugly to the other one. With each exchange I can almost count down until when the older says a harsh “idiot” or “shut up” to the younger one.
Words that are easy to say often cut the deepest.
I’m sitting here with a heart full of words to say, but still sitting here not knowing where to start.
I’m just sitting.
I could pray about the the check that I’ve lost.
I could pray for the friend who has just miscarried another baby.
I could read my daily scripture.
I could start breakfast.
But I just sit.
“Be still, and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10 says that God is okay with me just sitting. Sitting before Him, quiet. Knowing; assured that He knows where the check is, that He’s comforting the friend. That He’s molding the hearts of my boys into ones that love Him because He has an amazing future and plan for their lives.
The day will start fast and furious soon.
So until I must, I’ll sit.