Our house has issues with light bulbs.
I’m not sure what the deal is, but they blow like ridiculously fast. Those curly q bulbs that are supposed to last like 7 years? Yeah, try less than 7 months at our house. We always have bulbs out in our house. In our bathroom we have one of those set ups where there are three bulbs across the top of the mirror.
Naturally it was running on one bulb. We had robbed other lamps in the house and replaced the bathroom lights along the way they just kept blowing. I finally broke down and bought some new bulbs and Jason put them in for me.
Our tiny bathroom was now fully powered with 225 watts of sunshine goodness.
It was so bright. I could barely stand to walk in there without squinting.
Seriously. It was uncomfortable to wash my hands.
I literally felt like I needed to put sunscreen on the kids just to use the bathroom.
But all this light also pointed out all the imperfections in my bathroom.
The dust and hairspray on the wall.
The paint peeling off the trim.
The hair stuck to toothpaste on the floor.
Everywhere I looked I saw something else that pointed out our neglect.
As I felt like I was staring at the surface of the sun I felt this scripture come up in my mind: “The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.” I looked it up and it comes from John 1:5 and it verified the fact that with all this light, there was no where for the imperfections to hide.
I think I’ve always known it, but just recently God has revealed to me how incredibly selfish I am.
In that selfishness I want everything to go my way.
I want full control over situations.
I want perfection from the people in my life. But, don’t expect it from me.
I didn’t hold myself to the same standard.
I expected Jason to love me unconditionally, but I didn’t always love him the same way.
I expected my children to be obedient, but I certainly wasn’t always obedient to the things God was asking me to do.
It wasn’t until God had shown His light and expose this sin of pride and selfishness that God was able to do a transforming work in my life.
Selfishness couldn’t hide when it had been exposed by God’s love.
He didn’t expose it to embarrass or shame me. God’s not in that kind of business.
He did it to help me love better. Something He’s called all of us to do.
He did it to help me serve Him better and to walk in the calling He has on my life.
The enemy naturally wanted to to stay the way I was.
He wanted me to point out others imperfections while holding onto mine like a beloved pet.
He wanted me to shift blame to others instead of taking responsibility for my actions.
He knew keeping me where I was would keep me from God’s best.
He has so much more for us.
My biggest fear now is that I’ll get to Heaven and He’ll start a slideshow of “This is your life.” When that is over He’ll start another one that’s called “This could’ve been your life if you wouldn’t have settled for less than what I wanted for you.”
Let’s not settle for being the hair stuck in the toothpaste on the floor.
Let’s always allow God’s word to illuminate our insecurities, doubts, fears, and sins so we don’t miss out on all that He has for us.
His way is always best.
I love this scripture so much in the Message version:
You groped your way through that murk once, but no longer. You’re out in the open now. The bright light of Christ makes your way plain. So no more stumbling around. Get on with it! The good, the right, the true—these are the actions appropriate for daylight hours. Figure out what will please Christ, and then do it. Don’t waste your time on useless work, mere busywork, the barren pursuits of darkness. Expose these things for the sham they are. It’s a scandal when people waste their lives on things they must do in the darkness where no one will see. Rip the cover off those frauds and see how attractive they look in the light of Christ.
Wake up from your sleep,
Climb out of your coffins;
Christ will show you the light!
So watch your step. Use your head. Make the most of every chance you get. These are desperate times!
I’m a book-shelving, former tap dancer, wanna be writer, singer,
and banjo player, mother of 4, wife of 1, follower of Christ,
walking in the shadow of the Proverbs 31 woman
and redeemed by the grace and love of an Almighty God…
just living the dream.