Why Not

Why Not

*sigh*
It is good to be back.  
Taking a month-long break to close out our Summer Bible Series and to get into the swing of school allowed me to rest.
Resting doesn’t come naturally for me, mainly because I listen to the voice of the enemy saying if I’m resting, then I’m being lazy.
I can’t believe you are laying down…watching tv with Ellie.
You could be doing something.
What about this writing you think you can do? 

You haven’t blogged in a month.  
And guess what?  NOBODY CARES!
This “break” would be the perfect time for you to exit stage left and close the computer.
You are do-less.
You hear Jason fixing dinner in the kitchen?
You know what he’s thinking?
She.  Is.  Useless.

Have you ever heard something like this?
Accusations that sting more and more with each hit and lodge deeper and deeper into your heart and mind.
Until you believe it.
Don’t believe it.
NOWHERE in God’s love letter would He say things like that.
It’s a lie.
How dare he steal precious time from me to hear from our Father.
Don’t fall for his tricks.
Resting gave God the permission to reveal the ugly parts of my heart.
And boy is it ever a frustratingly exciting thing.
All this time I thought I was being holy.
I thought I was wrestling with God.
But maybe I was just wrestling with myself.

I still don’t know what His plan for me is, but what I know for certain is that I love Him so much.
So until He reveals His full plan to me, I’m going to be obedient, sharing the raw and vulnerable parts of my heart in order to help others be set free.
Until then I’m going to do the hard, like write a book.
And the scary, like CrossFit.
And all the things I have told myself, “You can’t do that!”…did I mention CrossFit?  And writing a book?
Why not?
WHY NOT?

Maybe bring along a few friends…you know, the ones you love fiercely and who have been through Hell’s fire and sustained unbelievable circumstances, but still think they are small and meek and not worthy.
That’s such BS.
I’m SO sick of the enemy stealing the best parts of us with a single sentence,  “You can’t.”
Let’s create a community of women who love God and are ready to do His will.
A community of tough broads who stand up and declare, “I CAN.  AND I WILL.”
Not because He can’t do it without us, but because we are here for a specific assignment and can’t do it without Him.

I’m a book-shelving, former tap dancer, wanna be writer, singer,
and banjo player, mother of 4, wife of 1, follower of Christ,
walking in the shadow of the Proverbs 31 woman
and redeemed by the grace and love of an Almighty God…
just living the dream.

Jill

I’m a book-shelving, former tap dancer, wanna be writer, singer, and banjo player, mother of 4, wife of 1, follower of Christ, walking in the shadow of the Proverbs 31 woman and redeemed by the grace and love of an Almighty God… just living the dream.

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